Have you ever been angry at God? Most of us try to deny it, but almost everyone has been angry at God at some point in their life. Reasons for being angry at God vary, but the most common ones include:
We never want to admit we're angry at God. In the midst of all the denial, we forget God already knows we are angry. He knows why, and He knows the depth of our pain. He is waiting with open arms to heal us from that anger and show us He truly is all loving and overwhelmingly good. There's no point in trying to hide our anger, but many of us do.
Even David, the apple of God's eye, got mad at God. The Psalms contain more than one of David's "rants" at God. These rants came as David questioned how much longer God would ignore him and not rescue him (Psalm 13:1-6; Psalm 35;17-18; Psalm 42:9-11). We will touch on important points about his rants in a moment.
Perhaps the best example of David's anger at God is in the book of 2 Samuel:
David was angry at God for doing what God said He would. He was frustrated and felt hopeless.
Please note I am not implying it is good to be angry at God. I am simply pointing out that if David felt anger toward God, doesn't it seem likely that being angry at God is sometimes a normal human reaction? Normal human reactions and emotions are often sinful, but they are not unforgivable.
The bottom line is that being angry at God shows we do not understand God's true character. It means we don't trust Him or believe He is on our side. Being angry at God is a very self-centered place to be, but it's a place almost everyone has occupied.
There are many verses that show that anger against God is a sin*. Instead of focusing on the sin, I'd rather discuss how we can move beyond being angry with God into finding peace and forgiveness.
Why do I write about being angry at God? Because i have been truly furious with God more than once. I know how that feels and I know the many ways it impacted my life. My first husband was an ordained minister who worked in full time ministry when we met. Meeting someone who was a chaplain and worked in full-time ministry was an answer to prayer.
Two months after we married, I discovered my husband was a closet alcoholic and drug addict. I was angry. At him. At God. At myself for ignoring the warnings God had sent me. It's funny how we often blame God for the choices we make, isn't it?
The ten years we were married were a constant rollercoaster ride of deep valleys and rough turns. My husband ultimately committed suicide. Please don't feel sorry for me or feel pity. I praise God every day for the experience of living with someone who couldn't fully submit to God and who worked hard to hide it. There is no other way I could have seen so many different sides of God's face and character. I also could never have learned so much about myself. In all honesty, I made it easy for my husband to fake it. I lied for him and covered for him because I was so ashamed of the decision I made to marry him.
The enemy loves to deceive us and drag us down alongside our prodigal spouse, even though we are clinging to God and trusting Him to bring healing.
Before my husband died, the kids and I abandoned our home in Mexico and started over. I was furious with God. From my perspective, I had bent over backward to serve and obey God, be a godly wife and live a godly life, but didn't get what God promised me I would. I felt cheated and betrayed.
The sin of my anger toward God obviously changed my relationship with Him. It also opened the door to other sins. Those sins led to worse sins. It took time for me to recognize that God was calling me home, coming after me and leaving the 99 because i was the one that wandered away (Matthew 18:12). He forgave me and restored my life.
Not only that, He provided in amazing ways for me and the kids as we started over, and restored everything I had lost. I'm now happily married to a very godly man who loves the Lord with all his heart. God healed the shame of my past and set me free from it. That is one reason why Burst Through Ministries exists. I have a deep desire to help others find healing and restoration from the traumas of the past so they can step more fully into the identity God has for them.
Are you angry at God? I understand and I feel your pain. Feel free to comment below and ask for prayer. Please know I'm praying for you, even if you don't ask.
* If you'd like to look up the verses that discuss being angry with God, look up these verses: Galatians 5:20; Ephesians 4:26-27; Colossians 3:8; Proverbs 19:3; Isaiah 45:24; Jonah 4:4.
Scripture quotations are taken from the Holy Bible, New Living Translation, copyright ©1996, 2004, 2015 by Tyndale House Foundation. Used by permission of Tyndale House Publishers, Inc., Carol Stream, Illinois 60188. All rights reserved.